by Emily Murdoch
Published by St. Martin's Griffin Release date : March 26th 2013
Genres: Contemporary, Mystery/Thriller, Realistic Fiction, Young Adult
Source: Library | Format: Hardcover
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There are some things you can’t leave behind…
A broken-down camper hidden deep in a national forest is the only home fifteen year-old Carey can remember. The trees keep guard over her threadbare existence, with the one bright spot being Carey’s younger sister, Jenessa, who depends on Carey for her very survival. All they have is each other, as their mentally ill mother comes and goes with greater frequency. Until that one fateful day their mother disappears for good, and two strangers arrive. Suddenly, the girls are taken from the woods and thrust into a bright and perplexing new world of high school, clothes and boys.
Now, Carey must face the truth of why her mother abducted her ten years ago, while haunted by a past that won’t let her go… a dark past that hides many a secret, including the reason Jenessa hasn’t spoken a word in over a year. Carey knows she must keep her sister close, and her secrets even closer, or risk watching her new life come crashing down.
This book is probably one of the most difficult books I have ever read. It’s horrific. Tear jerking. And it will haunt you.
Carey has been living out in the woods with her mother and sister, Jenessa, for as long as she can remember. With her mothers constant disappearances and drugs, Carey has stepped up to care for herself and her sister. When two strangers show up at their camper, Carey and Jenessa are thrust back into civilization. With secrets being kept and truths she vows to find, we catch as Carey tries to adjust, continue to care for her sister and ultimately, forgive.
I honestly don’t even know where to start. There is so much to say about this book and so much I can’t say.
Carey is such a strong, beautiful person. Caring for herself and for her sister with the barest of supplies. She is mature way beyond her years and did an amazing job at educating herself and her sister. Her transition back into “normal” life wasn’t easy, for her or to witness– even when she starts to remember from tidbits from her past. Although she never takes what she now has for granted, she really misses the woods and her mother. She is caring, loving and solely dedicated to protecting Jenessa. Jenessa too, is so sweet and smart. She is a little more open to the changes that they both have to adjust to. It was heartwarming watching her explore and discover those things we all take for grated.
The writing is fantastic. The story starts right off with Carey and Jenessa being whisked away and we get to see more of her what her life was like with her Mother through flash backs. You get to see what formed Carey and why she is so reluctant to leave the woods. While I didn’t like Delly, Carey’s step sister, I thought that her attitude and anger was realistic. This whole thing was easy for ANYONE evolved. I must say though, this book isn’t for everyone. While it is a beautiful written, heart wrenching story, its devastating too.
My only qualm was regarding a particular relationship development between Carey and Ryan. There was just something.. off about it. I can’t really get into details about it because it is something that plays a huge part in the story and Carey’s development.
Overall- I loved it. If You Find Me is a beautiful story with will tug at your heart and haunt your thoughts days after you finish. I highly recommend this one.